studying developmental psych and psychology in general has really helped me sort of let go of any bad feelings i harbored/forgive everyone for every shitty thing that ever happened growing up. like in high school it was so easy to hold people to a certain adult standard, especially when we dressed like adults and drank like adults.. a lot of things that once seemed shady or inexcusable might be better explained by sheer youth. we were all just scrambling, trying to figure out how who we were and what we wanted/ trying to make ourselves happy and everyone else along the way. a lot of decisions that seem right at the time have unforeseen and indirect consequences— unfortunately a lot of us had to learn that lesson the hard way, through trial and error. what’s good in theory isn’t always good in practice, and unfortunately it will probably always be that way. anyways i love everyone now and maybe i’m wrong for it but i think i’ve stumbled upon a much healthier way to reconstrue the past rather than continue to assume everyone’s a black entity or fake-ass manipulative bitch.